by Eva Faché Four years ago I traveled to Portugal to search and learn more about the life of a bullfighter out of intense curiosity. This search started earlier as a challenge for myself as a photographer but soon became a reality. So I ended up face to face with Antonio Vacas de Carvalho, captain of the forcado group from Montemor-o-novo, in a café across from the arena in Lisbon. Like a fly on the wall, I could observe and document the whole event without any prejudice. The solidarity of man and animal, with each other within the families and the community, pride, but also vanity. Everything, the many impressions. But very confused I remained behind.